Sounds.

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The frustrating thing about my sensitivity to sound is that nine times out of ten, I can hear something that my neurotypical family/friends can’t hear.

It leads to the most ridiculous arguments:

Me: Can you hear that?

NT: I don’t hear anything.  It’s all in your imagination.

Me: No.  I can hear it. Can’t you hear it? It sounds like a tapping.

NT: I’m telling you, it’s all in your head.

The frustrating thing about it is that it makes me feel like I’m losing my mind.  I’ll go thirty minutes hunting around until I can find the source of the sound just to prove I’m right.

I remember once it was the middle of the night and I kept hearing this quiet tapping.  It drove me batty, I had a meltdown because of it. All the while, my hubby was convinced I was either making it up or that it was just my imagination.

I finally turned all the lights on and located the sound–the bedroom fan was causing a small picture frame to bash against the wall, making a very slight knocking sound that my hubby could only hear if he got right up close to it.

It’s beyond aggravating to know you are hearing something, and no one believes you.

The moral of the story? Sometimes when a picture frame knocks in the night, it’s actually knocking.

Obsessions.

Aspies tend to have special interests.  I dislike that particular phrasing immensely, so I call them obsessions.  Some Aspies have lifelong interests, others hop from one to the other.

They are our way of dealing with the overwhelming stress that comes with being neuroAtypical in a neurotypical world and can range from actual hobbies to TV shows to movies to books–anything and everything really.

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I have regular hobbies which aren’t the same sort of thing.  I make chain maille for example, but not for the same reasons.

Almost all of my actual obsessions are mostly TV shows, As Time Goes By & The Tudors are my main ones.  I watch all nine seasons of As Time Goes By at least once a month.  I watch episodes of it every weekend.  We go out the most on Saturdays & Sundays, and if I don’t hide away afterward to recharge my social batteries, I get blinding migraines.

I have favourite episodes I skip to at times.  Something about the rhythm of the episode and knowing exactly what’s going to happen, it lulls the stress from my mind.  I love my obsessions.  I’ve even spent a lot of time hunting for coffee mugs similar to the ones they use on ATGB.  I now own three of them and usually use them for tea when I’m watching.   My hubby is remarkably patient with this and usually just heads downstairs to our second TV to play Xbox.

Do you have any hobbies that help you relax?

Ten Things I Hate…

…about promoting as an author who is autistic.

1 & 2 (and 3 – 10 actually) – EVERYTHING.

Maybe that’s a cop-out.

Or you might think it’s an exaggeration.

What is Autism/Asperger’s Snydrome?  There’s a great video by the National Autistic Society in the UK which explains it better than I can.

(further reading: Here)

Promoting a book requires an immense amount of social interactions which isn’t something an Aspie like myself does all that brilliantly.  Takeovers are probably the worst.  It end to suffer terrible anxiety before hand and extreme exhaustion and migraines after.

I jokingly refer to this as ‘Aspie Drain.’

Small talk and social interactions are second nature to the neurotypical for the most part.  An NT doesn’t necessarily spend time thinking about the rhythm of a conversation: how soon is too soon to reply, how much information is too much or not enough, how do I end the conversation, how do I include others.   If the average ‘normal’ person has say ten thought bubbles floating around while conversing(whether in real life or online) and Aspie likely has fourty to fifty of them.

Nothing about social interaction is instinctual for me.  I have to careful think about everything or I tend to confused.   Aspies do not improv well.   We can mimic NT behaviour, but only for so long and generally at the risk of greatly exhausting ourselves.

I’ve learned to work around this by doing a lot of prep-work.  I also try to stick with Q&A type formats because it’s a linear type of conversation.  I ask(or others ask), and they respond(or I respond).  There’s no guesswork.

All of this combines and makes things like promoting very difficult for me.

But I do it anyway. Because I don’t really have a choice. =)

That’s the thing about being autistic, I live in a world meant for other people.  It’s like being an alien .  I have to learn how to adapt, but it’s not always easy.